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so i just downloaded that new black eyed peas album because i really like all of the singles i've heard off of them. and now i'm listening to it. i'm not sure if i like it. i mean, am i going to just run off and tell everyone that i'm listening to the BLACK EYED PEAS right now? do i WANT to be a chonga, or something?
just thought i'd let you all know that i totally have a crush on taylor swift....
interesting weekend, i'm going to have fun tomorrow i hope. OH I'M GOING TO SAN FRANCISCO VERY SOON! I still need to figure out a few things but... so excited! :) ahhhhhhhh!!!!
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| asians stir. |
[18 Nov 2009|01:23am] |
i'm prone to being stir crazy. i need constant stimulation. constant conversation that captivates. let's do this, jennifer. you need to live up gainesville because gainesville surely won't live your ass up.
get the fuck out. go the fuck out
where the FUCK is my debit card?
school needs to actually interest me next semester. what is this anthropology BULLSHIT again? jesus. i need to see an adviser.
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| nuh uhhh! |
[10 Nov 2009|03:45pm] |
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i'm staying away, because i don't think i really care. nor should if i actually do... which i probably do
bye bye!
this song is soooooo goood!
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| oh... hey |
[09 Nov 2009|06:04pm] |
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way back when, when i was wondering, chris inspected and told me that you had gucci air force ones. i was infatuated before, but when he told me that tidbit i fucking FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU, and i'm not gonna lie - it was the creepiest shit ever. i was a thousand miles away but damn.
now... i've gotten to know you under the most bizarre, chance-ridden circumstances. but hey, we're friends right? i think chris was lying when he said you had gucci air force ones cuz i haven't seen them, but still. you're cute. i like you
i'm hollering. i definitely am. hollering is a rather abnormal activity for me, so holler back at me babe. let's jump into it. even if i'm not the most tactful person, you should have read the signs by now, and if i'm not mistaken i've read the same signs, and if we're both willing, then SHIT WHAT IS STOPPING US?
a song that kind of encompasses my thoughts on this situation (besides the fact that i'm a creeper) is "with arms outstretched" by rilo kiley. because... i don't wanna sound like a conceited bitch but dude, seriously so many people have been hollering at me as of late, some of whom are people i'd actually be interested in... you're at the very top of my list, though. but! you better move fast, i haven't gotten laid in a very long time so my patience can very well run thin. i mean it kinda already has, so LET'S GO!
had to let that out
ok i'm about to meet felicia for an ice cream date. and meet myself for a sushi date. and go to fucking subways ughhhhh
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[25 Oct 2009|05:01am] |
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people try to meet me
it's flattering
i like it
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| hey boy. |
[22 Oct 2009|01:33am] |
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you're not nice. you can't do that to me, i take things way too personally in that regard.
alvaro will have to save the day i guess. maggie, too.
haha fuuuck :\
this weekend will be fun. i think. it'll be busy, for sure. i need to make a mix for driving.
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| shish |
[19 Oct 2009|12:57am] |
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despite the lack of sleep, i had a good day. drove around town a bit to run a few errands and listened to.... that owl city on repeat. but other things too! like that song by jay sean and lil wayne called "down" --- god i love that song. and to think i didn't like it when i first heard it! ah, who knew.
i just straight up chilled the whole fucking day away. i did a good bit of my research paper... not as much as i should have, but considering the circumstances i'm proud i guess
so uh i think i'm kind of fucked for these next few days.... we'll see how it goes, though. i THINK there MIGHT be a light at the end of the tunnel?
i like hanging out with funny people. a whole damn lot
so ok, i'm not the best at comforting people... but people are also not the best at being mature and sane. you know?
oh yeah, people need to stop triflin and fucking CALL me instead of text me. not only do i hate texting, but i have a very limiting texting plan. plus word on the street is people can get thumb-carpel tunnel from that shit. my best suggestion is to just stay away from it, yo.
hm. i'm going to go to bed right now. i'm hoping i just pass the fuck out
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| samesies |
[18 Oct 2009|07:06am] |
god im really pissed. i took a vyvanse earlier today... like at 5pm or some shit. and even now at fucking SEVEN TEN IN THE MORNING, I can't fucking sleep.
i've concluded that i make really fucking bad decisions for myself. like, in general.
i like having this house to myself. and i kind of like this weather... it just needs some getting used to.
i went through some winter clothes i left at my parents' house today, and i went into the pockets of this one denim jacket i had with me in DC... oh. i miss it
my memory is shot, i am starting to treat people shittier and shittier. a cleanse is in need.
okay so i'm not tired at all right now. i think i'll make this a productive day, starting... now.
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[15 Oct 2009|03:04am] |
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i'm such a fucking bitch
it really surprised me to realize this, but i actually really enjoy spending time with MYSELF. living with friends wasn't a horrible idea, but i'd much rather live by myself. or live with roommates that don't even have my phone number. at the very least, these doors could fucking LOCK or something, you know? gainesville is a transitional period in my life, i'll be in and out and i don't really need to take pride in a concept of a "HOME" in gainesville right now, i'm a college student for christ's sake.
people are so fucking cheesy i don't need you to tell me that you love me, okay? i don't want to hear it
bah humbug, i really need to just fly far away and make sure everyone i am around is a complete fucking stranger
i need to cut it out.
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| brrrp boop beeep |
[12 Oct 2009|02:35pm] |
i'm pretty disgusted and disappointed in myself right now. sometime last week i ate a slice of "deluxe" pizza from five star, and just today i ate a bit of tuna sushi i got before i became throroughly grossed out. do i not have a concept of discipline anymore or something??! other areas of my life have indicated that this indeed is the case, and it's just stooped to an all-time low. it's not like meat is GOOD or anything, the only real reason why i felt guilt in the first place was because the actual process of eating meat was certainly NOT worth compromising whatever morals i had in tact from... middle school. i mean, seriously people. meat is kind of gross. i feel kind of gross. i'm not going to eat meat anymore. i'm not going to make exceptions to the rules and be one of those morons that PRETEND that they're a vegetarian. this never was a problem until... a week ago? seriously, jennifer. what the FUCK get a fucking grip
I'M A VEGETARIAN AND I AINT FUCKIN SCARED OF HIM
seriously every time i think of the word vegetarian that song pops up in my head. my mind has been forever tainted by a horrible band
i really have nothing else to say i guess. i'm excited for what this week has in store :) i really need to bring my ID to school for fucking once and pick up a month's worth of labor. oh i just remembered that i have to go into work early today. awesome... instead of doing school work i am reading cnn.com. the news is boring, but i'm sure if i looked more into it, it would be appallingly depressing.
you can say that i've got some plans.
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[03 Oct 2009|03:43am] |
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i remember some times.
1. i was locked out of my house.
2. i cried after the last time i can recall having dinner at the top.
3. eddie and hannah went into jenna's room during my birthday-eve and made a discovery.
4. the 612.
5. giving andrew the rose.
6. sunbathing with raven.
7. that party of no demographics in dc.
good fucking times.
rooftop times.
gainesville rooftops are alright, but i all i want to do right now is be up north tucked into winter clothes, smoking a cigarette while i admire all the lights and the heights and all of the people i know and the life that i'm living... on a rooftop.
i don't think i'm going to portland this winter because of the good possibility of snow wasting my time and money. (snow... who would have thought?) i really need to do some traveling, and i need to do it by myself. i'm thinking california. i don't have anyone i'm tight enough with to stay with/chill with i don't think, but that is alright. i need to draw fresh, individual breaths and see for myself what this mystique people everywhere have built up for me is really all about.
i'm in a rut here. what else is fucking new? i'm rut-prone, i'm gainesville-prone.
hm... i'm gonna take a little bit of action and actually do what i want to do... in terms of hurrrrrrr
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[28 Sep 2009|04:56pm] |
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Hmmm... so what's up with me.
I really need to keep better track of my possessions. Where are my debit cards?!
I finally got computer speakers for my laptop. They sound great! Well, i mean they're alright but let's just put it this way: they sound a lot better than shitty laptop speakers sound. A dollar at salvation army sure goes a long way...
Irene didn't change my schedule at Subway. I've got a bone to pick with her.
Speaking of subway... we made a new vagroaches video. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h9MMkk5rff0 When I just got the link to this I just watched it again, and lord I cracked the fuck up. Again. I've probably watched this video like 20 times. There's just something funny about Seal. and fergie especially. "i'll be at the gym just working on my fitness." What, bitch? who the fuck cares? You're ugly.
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| SURVEY |
[25 Sep 2009|10:43am] |
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this weekend better be fun!
If you could change the last person you kissed with anyone in the world, who would it be?
ooooo.
Are you shy?
eh. no. not really. no
Could things possibly get any better?
def
Has there been anyone particular on your mind at all today?
not really. my mind runs around a lot
Can you see a cat from where you're sitting?
YES HE'S CUTE
Could you date someone taller than you?
uh. yeah.
When was the last time you were told you were cute?
well i don't know if this counts but yesterday some ghetto dude at the ghetto convenience store was all like damn chinese girl you got a nice ass. look your zipper is undone, stop workin dat ass and i took that as a compliment.
How do you feel about your hair right now?
jesus it's ugly but everyone else has been like "NO it looks good"... i'm growing it out so i can treat myself to something special
Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed on the lips?
probably... it wasn't an intimate setting or anything
Have you ever slept in the same bed as your friends?
yeah
What was the weather like today?
sunny
Do you have a brother?
no
Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
yea
Is there someone you will never forget?
of course
Have you ever liked someone who wasn't single?
haha... uh yeah
What's your mom's middle name?
she doesn't have one
Do you know anyone with an artificial leg?
i mean i don't know them well or anything, i can't even recall their face OR name
Do you wear socks to bed in the winter?
YES
Have you ever been to Hooters?
no
Do you like Chinese food?
i mean it's alright
Do you snore in your sleep?
apparently i do :(
Whose picture did you last comment?
uhhhh. do you really care?
Exactly when was your last status update?
like at 4:30 this morning
What color is the closest lamp to you?
it's a lava lamp!
Have you ever made any "grown up" decisions?
yes... heh
What do you miss about the old days?
innocence, honesty, being more apt to love or even crush, some people, the northeast
Honestly, do you think that you're going to be an overprotective parent?
i don't know if i'm even going to be a parent.
What would you do if you discovered that you had a 7 year old kid?
uhhhh that'd be awkward
How many people can you think of that you know named Christopher?
i can only think of 5 but i'm sure i know more
Have you ever found it hard to get over someone?
yes. oh lord.
If I turned on your television, what channel would be on?
we don't have cable
If your last ex had a child right now what would your reaction be?
i wouldn't be surprised...
Can you make yourself cry?
never tried
Do you care what people think about you?
to an extent yes
Would you rather not eat or not sleep?
uhhh. well, i like eating better than sleeping.
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| AN IRON FISTED CHAMPION |
[22 Sep 2009|02:39am] |
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so uh it's 2:40. i got off of work like an hour ago. yeah, at like 1:40. now i'm listening to propagandhi and feeling angry and like a good ole girl of the working class. pUNK ROCK
actually... those last few hours i spent at subway have opened my eyes to the hidden reason why i am currently a 4-year college student. fuck this shit, i never want to work at a restaurant or anything as a living! i barely even know why i haven't quit this shit yet. i'm glad my parents did enough to keep me motivated enough to go through education decently. they've made smart decisions for me when i wouldn't have thought about them otherwise. even though it was complete bullshit i am glad i went through IB, it helped me mask my at best mediocre intelligence with bows and ribbons and diplomas 'n' shit.
i'm jaded. i don't care about the world at large. i thought i would join some clubs on campus, but do i really think groups represented on campus like oh, planned parenthood could use my help? no. will i fare well in contrived social interactions where people have dinner table discussions on spirituality? no. if i don't make friends at school then i guess i'm missing out, but they might be too.
what the fuck am i saying. i'm just a number at a big public school, i will never do anything remarkable. i will be able to fall in between the motions if i try hard enough and live a life i find pretty decent i'm sure. and i'm sure i will continue seeing amazing things and meeting amazing people. but i'm not someone to be talked about in awe. i'm not trying to get your pity, livejournal friends. i just know this to be true. i'm a spectator, and i'm pretty fucking fine with it...
now i should spectate (is that even a word) my biology and calc notes unless i want to die a slow death in the next couple of days. i also should buy some more weed unless i want to die a slow death in the next couple of days. funny how that works out
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[21 Sep 2009|01:53am] |
mmmmmmmmmmmmmm
i'm pretty sure i'm going to visit my boy brennan in pdx this winter... it'll be a ton of fun. i kind of want to go by myself, but if josie wants to come, he should. i don't know how intent he is on coming, and i don't know if i'd want anyone else to come with me. i'm thinking about swinging down to cali too to see what that shit's all about. nothing is too definite, but i'm set on going to portland.
school is whatever... my first tests are coming up, so i guess soon i'll have a good idea of how well i'm doing.
i'm pretty sick of subway. i need to change my shift on saturday. if irene doesn't want to change my shift on that day, then i'm putting in my two weeks. whatever, if i can afford to have fun (and i can), i should. bright futures is a godsend!
yesterday raven and i went up to the roof of the parking lot of jefferson 2nd and STRAIGHT UP SUNBATHED. that was the shit, we should do that more often. haha. i'm horrible... i can never feel comfortable when i'm too far away from urban sprawl.
there are people that i like, and people that i love. also, there are straight up retards out there
i want to feel fuzzy. where is the cold weather?
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[04 Sep 2009|02:47pm] |
i already fucked up. not very badly, but bad enough for it to be either a wake up call, or the beginning of me sinking
we'll see where this weekend takes me. i need to study
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| oh oh. oh |
[01 Sep 2009|12:45pm] |
goddamn it it really feels shitty being the <B>absolute stupidest</B> person in your math class. after i turned in that quiz i seriously felt like fucking CRYING....
it also feels pretty shitty to have the absolute worse hair in your math class, too. especially since we are talking about an honors math class.
so, basically... all i'm trying to say is that it sucks that i don't perpetuate a fucking stereotype, and it sucks that i'm ugly.
i need to buy some h3rb for thursday so i can smoke and tell everyone in my sexuality discussion that they're fucking stupid and don't deserve to get laid. maybe that will make me feel better about the fact that i'm a fucking dumbass
i feel pretty pathetic going to a campus computer right before work just to type in my fucking livejournal
but that's the way it fuckin goes
i have my biology lab today. i'm a little nervous
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[29 Aug 2009|02:30am] |
dude so school kind of sucks but i love being in it
i don't know if i like working at subway...
there is always someone working a closing shift.... poor things :( i'm too much of a princess to settle for that, ever. yes i will eat food off of the ground but no i'd never work a closing shift at subway. you can fuck right off
that santa fe job is blah.... people at santa fe look straight RETARDED so they're boring to look at (contrary to my campus). i kind of have a crush on my boss though, SUCH A DWEEB. he was looking in his bag and he had NINTENDO DS GAMES HAHA. he looks like john darnielle who i used to think was ugly but when i saw him live he suddenly became so sexy. i digress, though: kind of really like tutoring...
speaking of math omg calculus is killing me but oh shit it's 2:33am, it's past 12:000, i can't fucking drop that class anymore. plus... i... am...... so silly
oh god i have so much to do tomorrow fuck. i should set my alarm, even though i DO wanna sleep in :(
there are some straight up homophobes/douchebags in my TA sexuality class... actually, in my sexuality class period. i'm going to set the record straight here, and be crazy in my sexuality discussion... i know what i'll do. i'll smoke weed before i go
i love the fall here, i've realized. contrary to my sentiments the same time last year... i'm pretty excited about spending a spring as a college student :) i feel kind of toolish being so proud of going there, especially since i did not think that AT all before in fact i hated it.... but. yeah. i love uf, and gainesville is alright.
such a small world after all.
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[25 Aug 2009|02:19am] |
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first day of classes blah blah blah and first day at job at subway blah blah
i WILL mention that there a bunch of cute girls in a few of my classes... mmmmmm
i hope to dyke it out this semester
i also intend on getting good marks but uhhhhhhhhhh just from tonight i've seen that old habits die hard
my hopes and intentions will probably fall short again this semester, i should probably stop doing that thing i do where i pretend to show no interest when a cute girl passes my way or tries to talk to me. i should also probably STOP SMOKING WEED GOD wtf it's 2:30 ughhhh
i think my life will be practically consumed by my jobs, and my vagina will consume itself from the inside out and move on to the rest my body from all of this sexual frustration, and as a result of that i physically won't be able to do work for classes because my left hand and brain would have been consumed by my carnivorous vag
haha now that i've set my expectations this low...
happy birthday becky!! i luv my sis
note to self: hang out with katie david more. do it big whenever elena is in town next. say hi to kenny and robert on a regular basis. talk to felicia. talk to jake. talk to april. drink more water at night. get it. get it. get it. plan a trip this winter with hannah. play football/soccer with sean and bros. work towards more variety. look cute everyday.
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[20 Aug 2009|03:17am] |
my personal theories on people (individuals, characters... whatever) are loud and proud, but flawed and skewed.
my artistic ambitions fell short this summer, due to both a lack of effort and imagination. i'll try something smaller. i'll try something i scoff at now, but looked at in awe during those high school days.... here's a hint: it starts with a 'c' and ends with an 'omic zine'. i stole the thought from an idea i was left out from.
it's sad when people disappoint me. it sucks when people annoy me
i'm really excited about school starting... real excited. i know i've talked about it a lot but i can't reiterate how excited i am about actually doing SOMETHING with my life.
i really miss job. he's on a camping trip right now, but honestly i've missed him for longer than he's been in north carolina. we haven't consolidated the base of our friendship in a damn long time, for so long i can't even remember... probably since around the time i went to miami. i guess i got distracted, and he did too.
well since i'm on a fucking livejournal roll already let me try and sum up my summer: drugs drugs drugs, "drowning in the pools of other lives," accessible road trips, pleasant encounters from people of the past, cigarettes, independence, decadence, sass, $$money disputes$$, porches, intimacy and lack thereof, discontent, marianne fuckin' mckey, jamie fuckin' mccarter, joseph fuckin' arnau
oh yeah gainesville punks are retarded... but some of them say the cutest (in the most autistic way) fucking things. "if someone crushed my beer, i would get another beer and listen to the stooges. they are just that good."
i'm ready for college. i want a CRUSH... a crush i see on a regular basis, one that gets my heart skipping beats and shuts me the fuck up. they don't even have to know i exist, i just want a crush that fills those criteria... maybe a more forced schedule with school and work will bring someone to attention. please? i mean, fuck inbreeding
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